A Well-Spent Saturdate

My Friday was ruined. Entah apa-apa saja yang membuat hari jum’at ku terasa berantakan, sampai-sampai ku putuskan untuk tidur lebih awal. Esok harinya, hari Sabtu ini, aku pun bangun cukup pagi dengan perasaan sedikit janggal. Ada yang harus aku ungkapkan, unek-unek yang biasanya hanya di dalam pikiran. Dengan keyakinan yang kuat, akhirnya aku berani menyampaikan kejanggalan hatiku padanya. Semoga saja dia benar faham.

Sejak malam sebelumnya, aku sudah merasa rambutku perlu diguyur saking lepeknya. Tapi, namanya juga manusia, ada saja alasan untuk tak berlama-lama di pemandian. Tepat jam delapan, aku meninggalkan kamar untuk pergi ke salon langganan. Sesampainya disana, aku langsung minta dicuci lalu diluruskan rambutnya. Iya. Se-random itu.

Kopi Pagi & Hal-Hal Sepele

Dimulai dari segelas es kopi dengan tagar kopi dari hati yang aku beli kemarin sore, aku pun memulai hari ini. Tidak ada yang spesial, atau mungkin lebih tepatnya belum ada. Saat aku menulis tulisan ini, jam di sudut layar laptop menunjukkan pukul sebelas siang. Aku masih mengumpulkan niat untuk melanjutkan revisian. Bukannya mulai revisi, aku malah menulis ini. Nikmati saja. Kalau tidak ingin, juga tak apa.

Iced Coffee by Kopi Janji Jiwa

Pertemanan dan Bumbu Memuakkannya

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Kata orang tua dahulu, banyak anak banyak rezeki. Pun dengan berteman. Banyak teman, berarti banyak rezeki, katanya. Tapi sejak remaja, aku tak pernah setuju dengan pepatah tersebut. Aku lebih nyaman berteman dengan segelintir orang saja. Sejak SMP, SMA, hingga duduk di bangku Perguruan Tinggi. Ya itu-itu saja. Bisa lah dihitung dengan jari teman-teman yang rutin ku temui untuk sekedar ngopi ataupun rumpi.

Recap and New Beginnings

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Wow. It’s a new year already.

So much had had happen last year. From good memories to bad ones. From happy feelings to sad ones. Here are some of the highlights of my previous precious year.

2017 was a memorable year for me. Started in January with a hella heartbroken then met someone whom I could call a good friend. Had my first experience of being an intern in a startup company for about 3 months, which I learnt a lot from. Tho, I had to postpone my graduation due to my own fault cos of not working on my thesis seriously.

#YouWillBeFine in Fine Coffee

    I've been wanting to go to this coffee shop ever since I saw them on Instagram ages ago, but haven't really had chance to pay a visit. Fortunately, my friend asked me to go out last Friday night, then I chose this place to feed my curiosity.

    It was around 7 in the evening when we arrived at the cafe, it looked pretty lovely from the outside. Btw, Fine Coffee has its indoor and outdoor spot. For indoor one, it has pretty lovely design mainly in black color and little touch of white ones with quotes on it. Nothing special for the outdoor one, but still they have that iconic wall of quote on it, a long one!

Indoor Spot

Stranger's Roses

I personally never imagined to get a bouquet of flowers at my door. Even I indeed sometimes think that it would be sweet if someone give me those. I ever read one of my friend’s bio on a social media which stated “not one of the flowers kind of girl”. It was not wrong at all, but just let’s be honest here. If anyone by any chance surprise you with flowers, wouldn’t you be happy, though? 

            Flashback to few previous years, when I was still in my teenage world. I “met” this guy in a chat room on the internet. It was supposed to be a video chat one, but he hasn’t got cam on his computer at that time. He only put a pic of him there. The one and only picture of himself. White shirt, brown pair of eyes, messy-curly blonde hair, and an awkward pose.

Relieved

I had a feeling something is going wrong between us.

It was a weird feeling, but it seemed so real.

All of the sudden you keep telling me that you love me and you only ever wanted me to be yours.

Smiling, was the only respond I gave to you that time.

You promised me the world. 

Promised me forever.

Promised everything that I know you couldn’t do.

Yet, I believed in you. 

I believed in every shitty words that came out of your mouth.

Feelings.

            Have you ever felt you made a big mistake after taking back someone who hurts you many times? Have you ever felt like you are the stupidest person to forgive someone after he cheated on you several times? Have you ever felt so fed up of someone’s promises cos he always the one who breaks them? Have you ever thought that you deserve someone whom better than this person you are currently with? I have. Fyi, it’s the shittiest feeling on earth.

Forgive Me Not

I ever met someone whom I adored so much. 

He was an oldie, but a goldie.

I remember we had so many things in common, but most importantly, we both love reading.

I’ve never read any Japanese author, ‘till he introduced me to Haruki Murakami.

I remember one time he told me that he finished 1Q84 on the plane, that I should read it too.

That was when I began to fall in love with Murakami. 

He caused it and I ain't complaining.

One night I was such in anger.

We had big argument that I told him to go away.

Never had I ever thought he would be gone right away.

I only known him not in real life, which he decided to cut off all our connection.

He stopped talking to me since, which left me in such a regret to let go of a nice soul.

3 AM Thoughts

Just another day of staying awake in the late night

Acid Ghost – I Don’t Need You is playing on the phone

Yet actually, I do need you

I need you to hold me

I need you to hug me

I need you to tell me that everything’s gonna be okay

I need you by my side

Sometimes I’m tired of talking

Talking and texting through the screen

Don’t you want to be with me too?

In real life

Not in our imaginary world

Don’t you sometimes feel lonely?

Even when we are talking to each other

Even when we are laughing together

Even when we are sharing that good feeling on the call?

Frankly, I am tired of missing you.