A Well-Spent Saturdate

My Friday was ruined. Entah apa-apa saja yang membuat hari jum’at ku terasa berantakan, sampai-sampai ku putuskan untuk tidur lebih awal. Esok harinya, hari Sabtu ini, aku pun bangun cukup pagi dengan perasaan sedikit janggal. Ada yang harus aku ungkapkan, unek-unek yang biasanya hanya di dalam pikiran. Dengan keyakinan yang kuat, akhirnya aku berani menyampaikan kejanggalan hatiku padanya. Semoga saja dia benar faham.

Sejak malam sebelumnya, aku sudah merasa rambutku perlu diguyur saking lepeknya. Tapi, namanya juga manusia, ada saja alasan untuk tak berlama-lama di pemandian. Tepat jam delapan, aku meninggalkan kamar untuk pergi ke salon langganan. Sesampainya disana, aku langsung minta dicuci lalu diluruskan rambutnya. Iya. Se-random itu.

Stranger's Roses

I personally never imagined to get a bouquet of flowers at my door. Even I indeed sometimes think that it would be sweet if someone give me those. I ever read one of my friend’s bio on a social media which stated “not one of the flowers kind of girl”. It was not wrong at all, but just let’s be honest here. If anyone by any chance surprise you with flowers, wouldn’t you be happy, though? 

            Flashback to few previous years, when I was still in my teenage world. I “met” this guy in a chat room on the internet. It was supposed to be a video chat one, but he hasn’t got cam on his computer at that time. He only put a pic of him there. The one and only picture of himself. White shirt, brown pair of eyes, messy-curly blonde hair, and an awkward pose.

Relieved

I had a feeling something is going wrong between us.

It was a weird feeling, but it seemed so real.

All of the sudden you keep telling me that you love me and you only ever wanted me to be yours.

Smiling, was the only respond I gave to you that time.

You promised me the world. 

Promised me forever.

Promised everything that I know you couldn’t do.

Yet, I believed in you. 

I believed in every shitty words that came out of your mouth.

Feelings.

            Have you ever felt you made a big mistake after taking back someone who hurts you many times? Have you ever felt like you are the stupidest person to forgive someone after he cheated on you several times? Have you ever felt so fed up of someone’s promises cos he always the one who breaks them? Have you ever thought that you deserve someone whom better than this person you are currently with? I have. Fyi, it’s the shittiest feeling on earth.

Ugly Truth

Have you ever felt so happy and then turn to be so sad all at once?
I have.
I was happy two hours ago. Now? I’m so f—king sad for no reason.
It was mainly about something that has been going on during this week I think.

Lovey dovey shit between two love birds that fucked up, and you are happened to be in between them.
To tell the truth, I once had feeling for the guy. Yet again, reality rarely lives up to high expectations.

It took me almost a year to realize the white lies. What a fool, right?
I’ve been so foolish to get involved in such a stupid game which well-played by a player whom such a dick himself. I even ever cried for him, once!

I was in pain.
But, why? He wasn’t even mine.