3 AM Thoughts

Just another day of staying awake in the late night

Acid Ghost – I Don’t Need You is playing on the phone

Yet actually, I do need you

I need you to hold me

I need you to hug me

I need you to tell me that everything’s gonna be okay

I need you by my side

Sometimes I’m tired of talking

Talking and texting through the screen

Don’t you want to be with me too?

In real life

Not in our imaginary world

Don’t you sometimes feel lonely?

Even when we are talking to each other

Even when we are laughing together

Even when we are sharing that good feeling on the call?

Frankly, I am tired of missing you.

Nothing But Coincidence

October 20^th, 2016

Coincidence? Probably.

It’s been a long time since the last time I spoke to him. The last time we spoke, he was so upset because I got a boyfriend. It wasn’t my fault, was it? Him and I had no relationship, at all. Just a regular friend, yet he got mad at me when I’m taken then deleted me on Skype.

In a boring night after a little fight with Mr. So Called Boyfriend, I got onto a random site that I used to go a lot in the past. It was the place where I met him actually. Yet, that night I wasn’t expecting to meet anyone that I’ve ever spoken to, but… I guess it’s not my lucky night.

Ugly Truth

Have you ever felt so happy and then turn to be so sad all at once?
I have.
I was happy two hours ago. Now? I’m so f—king sad for no reason.
It was mainly about something that has been going on during this week I think.

Lovey dovey shit between two love birds that fucked up, and you are happened to be in between them.
To tell the truth, I once had feeling for the guy. Yet again, reality rarely lives up to high expectations.

It took me almost a year to realize the white lies. What a fool, right?
I’ve been so foolish to get involved in such a stupid game which well-played by a player whom such a dick himself. I even ever cried for him, once!

I was in pain.
But, why? He wasn’t even mine.

ALL THE LIGHT WE CANNOT SEE (BOOK REVIEW)

ALL THE LIGHT WE CANNOT SEE
Anthony Doerr
Scribner / May 2014

Are you not so into historical book? If you said yes, you need to check out this one. This fiction novel is absolutely magnificent and stunning. It does have a quite number of pages (530 pages), but trust me once you read, all you want to do is just keep reading it pages by pages.  The story tells about a girl named Marie-Laure who lives with her father in Paris. They live nearby the Museum of Natural History where her father works as master of all locks. Marie-Laure goes blind by the age of six, and afterwards her father builds her a kind of city model of their neighborhoods with quite details so that she can try to memorize it by touching every roads on it with her fingers.